Ooooo I have skipped a few days. Not purposefully but it just slipped my mind. Being in a depressed state will do that to a person. I do have a lot on my mind. I have a surgery coming up for my back. Is it going to work this time? Will I be in this kind of pain forever? I mean I should be used to pain from the Fibromyalgia but this is different. Fibro pain is unbearable sometimes but it is kind of like a cranky old friend, annoying but you know them so well you put up with them. The pain from my back is another story. It makes me feel old. I can't even walk half way across Walmart without hanging on to the cart for dear life. Can't plan anything fun if there is walking involved. No long walks on the beach. I love to get grounded and am so grateful for the ocean and wet sand but some how it is not quite as satisfying when you stay in one place, a long walk on the waters edge brings such peace and solace. I also miss my grandchildren terribly but that is a subject not up for public discussion but I only mention it in respect to what I said about having a lot on my mind.
That is not to say there isn't anything to be grateful for. There is always plenty of things to be thankful for. The simple things like another day, the sun, stars and moon, the air we breath and the roof over our heads are all things we take for granted but could and should be thankful for. I am thankful for the wonderful group of women that came together in my meet-up group The Visible Seniors. I don't think I have ever had so much fun with girlfriends before in my life. I am very grateful for my friend Ivy for helping me with a project, my chakra key chain. I really love how it came out. Thank you Ivy. I am very grateful for my Fibromyalgia support group, FibroHaven, it provides awesome yoga thanks to our leader and teacher Dannette and our fellowship with other members during the periodical meetings where we support each other. Thank you for that. It is a wonder to be around people that truly understand where most cannot even empathize. I am thankful too for the color purple because it represents so many things and causes that are near and dear to my heart.
Did I fail? I think not. It is okay to take a break for a few days as long and I do not forget the goal and get back to it and do my best to catch up. Breath in gratitude and breath out love!
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