Day 41 Kundalini Dance Meditation

Today I went to the Chopra Center with a friend to a Kundalini Dance Meditation directed by Sarito Sun.  It was wonderful and freeing.  I am now totally relaxed and feel great.  Thank you for the opportunity and for the friends to share it with.  What a fabulous Sunday afternoon.

Day 38 * 39 * 40 Did I Fail

Ooooo I have skipped a few days.  Not purposefully but it just slipped my mind.  Being in a depressed state will do that to a person.  I do have a lot on my mind.  I have a surgery coming up for my back.  Is it going to work this time?  Will I be in this kind of pain forever?  I mean I should be used to pain from the Fibromyalgia but this is different.  Fibro pain is unbearable sometimes but it is kind of like a cranky old friend, annoying but you know them so well you put up with them.  The pain from my back is another story.  It makes me feel old. I can't even walk half way across Walmart without hanging on to the cart for dear life.  Can't plan anything fun if there is walking involved.  No long walks on the beach.  I love to get grounded and am so grateful for the ocean and wet sand but some how it is not quite as satisfying when you stay in one place, a long walk on the waters edge brings such peace and solace.  I also miss my grandchildren terribly but that is a subject not up for public discussion but I only mention it in respect to what I said about having a lot on my mind.  

That is not to say there isn't anything to be grateful for.  There is always plenty of things to be thankful for.  The simple things like another day, the sun, stars and moon, the air we breath and the roof over our heads are all things we take for granted but could and should be thankful for.  I am thankful for the wonderful group of women that came together in my meet-up group The Visible Seniors.  I don't think I have ever had so much fun with girlfriends before in my life.  I am very grateful for my friend Ivy for helping me with a project, my chakra key chain.  I really love how it came out.  Thank you Ivy.  I am very grateful for my Fibromyalgia support group, FibroHaven, it provides awesome yoga thanks to our leader and teacher Dannette and our fellowship with other members during the periodical meetings where we support each other.  Thank you for that.  It is a wonder to be around people that truly understand where most cannot even empathize. I am thankful too for the color purple because it represents so many things and causes that are near and dear to my heart.

Did I fail?  I think not.  It is okay to take a break for a few days as long and I do not forget the goal and get back to it and do my best to catch up.  Breath in gratitude and breath out love!

Day 37 FibroHaven,Yoga & Healing Circle

We have this community of wonderful people that have fibromyalgia that share and support each other.  It is a safe place to say how you feel and what you are afraid of and be with people that really understand.  The Healing Circle was quite emotional but extraordinarily helpful tonight.   Just saying out loud the I have been feeling depressed helps me to feel better and feel the veil begin to lift.  The meditation during yoga before the meeting is another wonderful thing that happened tonight.  Letting go of the things that don't serve me.  I know this but it is not always that easy to do.  I am grateful for the ideal reminders from today!

Day 36 Passion Tea and C

 


When I am cold and feeling under the weather I like to drink hot herbal tea. Sometimes I like it with honey and lemon.  Sometimes I like it just plain.  Tonight I like it with an EmergenC in it.  It feels like I might have a chance to get ahead of the impending cold I feel coming on.  That would be ideal since I have a surgery date coming up.  I do not want to get sick.  I am drinking Tazo passion tea with an orange flavor EmergenC.  So thank you tea and C for the delish drink and the intent to be well and the overall good feeling.

Day 35 Learning English

It warmed my heart today to have to lovely young ladies that are foreign exchange students come to our coffee chat this morning.  They sought out and traveled by bus to find our group. It took 2 hours to get there and they just came to practice English with a bunch of people.  One girl was from Turkey and the other from Japan.  They were just the sweetest things.  It warmed my heart how sincere they were.  Thanks girls!!

Day 34 Getting through

I am grateful for the battle because when I get through to the other side, and I will it will be oh so sweet!

Day 33 Love me some friends

I had an accident yesterday, you know the one I mentioned falling like a klutz.  Anyway I really didn't think I had a concussion when I told you that but I have since rethought that conclusion. I have laid low today and I'm still feeling slightly dizzy and I have a major headache.  I have been very sleepy all day.  I just wanted to say how grateful I am to my sweet friends on Facebook for all there concern and for convincing me to contact my doctor.  I feel loved!

Day 31 and Day 32 Finished paperwork and didn't crack my head open

Those forms were soooo big!

I have been really busy for a couple of days filling out paperwork for Social Security Disability and doing my taxes.  I tend to get overwhelmed when I have to fill out long forms.  These forms are very important to my case.  I was under a lot of pressure to get them done because there was a deadline and they arrived late.  So first I am ever so grateful that they are finished and filed.  

Today I was putting away laundry in my room.  I stepped on a towel that hadn't made it into the hamper yet.  I lost my balance and down I went hitting my head on the bed frame.  Bam!  I am grateful that I could stand up again and there was no blood , I don't think I have a concussion, just a headache.  Things could always be worse so thank you! 

Day 30 Positivity on FB

If we are honest with ourselves it isn't always easy to be happy and positive and upbeat.  So I am grateful always for the wonderful positive quotes and posts on Facebook that remind me when I forget to look at things with the glass half full attitude.  So thanks Facebook for being there and thank you posters for the smile you put on my face! ♥

Day 29 Peanut Butter

I love peanut butter!  I eat it for breakfast because it is a good source of protein and I am not an egg eater. I eat it for snacks too. I love it with fruit or on bread and I love the natural kind the best.  So I am really grateful to Walmart for having the big jar of Skippy Natural peanut butter for such a reasonable price!! Thanks Walmart!

Days 26,27and28

Ok I admit that I have been very lazy and with days of migraine pain I wasn't feeling much like writing.  Over the past few days I was hating the rain because with it along comes the headache.           Now, I realize how necessary the rain is and how I do appreciate it because I do so love the spring flowers and their brilliant beautiful colors.  So thank you rain, thank you for the coming spring flowers.  Thank you for the migraines too because they compelled me to practice Reiki on myself and that is a good thing.  So the rain was a good thing after all.  Hooray for rain!  Plus thank you for my Reiki practice.  Reiki proves itself more and more every time.  And lastly thank you Boo for hanging out with me while I was in pain.  I love you.  

Day 25 Corrective Lenses

Oh my goodness. Today it is raining again and I have a killer migraine.  I laid down for a little while to do a self healing Reiki treatment then fell asleep.  When I woke up I was late for a doctor appointment and wanted to call but I couldn't find my glasses.  I could not see the numbers in my phone.  I searched and searched to no avail and was getting frustrated.  I couldn't read anything or see the fine detail.  My room is not that big where could they have gotten to.  I finally tore my whole bed apart and found them.  So I am thankful for corrective lenses.  I cannot imagine going through life without seeing the details. Hooray for glasses!!

Day 24 Could be Worse

Today I have pain and a wicked migraine.  I am still thankful because I can still walk and my headache is not to the point where I have to go to the ER for a shot.  So I am grateful because things could be worse.!!

Day 23 In Remembrance of Zoey

It seems strange to at first to be grateful about Zoey but I am. I am not grateful she is no longer with us but I am thankful that she is in no more pain, that she is a beautiful spirit watching over all who loved her.  Zoey was very special and in her illness she brought many people together in prayer and faith.  Her unwavering faith and strength was so remarkable.  She set a high standard that we all should try attain as we go through our trials and tribulations of life.  Be thankful everyday for what you have and try your hardest to do your best.  So thank you Zoey for the life lessons you taught us and let you light shine on! Namaste Dear Zoey, Namaste!

Day 22 Yay for Ebay

I am very thankful today for the way Ebay backs up the customer.  I purchased and product and it was not the color advertised.  I tried to get used to it but decided it wasn't working for me.  The seller would not take it back because it was past the date on their return policy.  I filled out the form on Ebay and within an hour I had my money back.  So Thanks Ebay!!

Day 21 Can't say it too much!

I just can't say it too much or too often.  I am so grateful for my meet-up group The Visible Seniors a Women's Meet-up group aka WOW's.  This group of fabulous women have become so near and dear to my heart.  I never dreamed of this when I joined and then took over as organizer that this group would be so wonderful.  We always have fun. Everyone is great and I love love love everyone of them.  Thanks for the memories Ladies!! Can't wait for some new adventures!

Day 20 Wellness

I am posting this a day late but will be posting 2 today.  Yesterday I took a wellness day.  I was feeling low energy and had a Fibro flare and was sneezing.  I stayed in bed all day and watched tv and drank tea and EmergenC.  I am thankful that I was able to and I allowed myself to do that because I felt sooooo much better when I woke up!!!

Day 19 Stater Bros

When you live in a rented room without a whole lot of cooking access good meals become a commodity.  So I am grateful to Stater Bros for the chicken leg quarters for only 1.49.  They are quite tasty, moist and delicious.  I make a salad and it is a fine hot meal for me.

Day 18 Progress

I am grateful that my MRI is finally done.  It took an hour and it is finished.  Now I have to see my doctor on Tuesday to get the results.  I will find out what the damage is, if I need more surgery or what.  But it is progress.  Speaking of progress... tonight I have a meet-up group to practice Reiki.  I do not know anyone in the group and after the MRI I was going to fall back into my old comfortable patterns and cancel. I mean I do have a headache and all.  Plus it is so far away from home.  Then I decided to suck it up and go.  So now I am biding time in Starbucks until it is time to be there.  I am proud of myself for not backing out.  That is progress!!

Day 17 to Live Another Day

Do we take for granted waking up every morning? The air we breath and the earth under our feet?  I do.  I know we are all aware of the pollution and global warming and war and violence but on a day to day basis we do take these things for granted.  I think even the most extreme activists do to some extent.  So I just want to say I am thankful for waking up today.  Thankful to have another chance to be happy, to make someone happy, to forgive or hopefully be forgiven, to smile or better to make someone smile. To love and be loved. I am grateful for the chance to live.  

Day 16 Boo

Boo is my cat.  I got her as a little kitten on Veteran's Day in 2010 from a neighbor that was over breeding or at least just not caring enough to spay or neuter her cats. I wasn't looking for a cat but I had to save at least one from that fate.  She was a spunky little kitten and she is now a beautiful cat.  She keeps me company when I am alone and is affectionate when she wants to be.  I am grateful to have her and that I could keep her with me when I moved.

Day 15 Blue Skies

I am ever so grateful for the beautiful blue sky and the bright sunshine today!  What a great day to be outside.  Still cool for this areal but beautiful none the less.  Go out and enjoy!

Day 14 In a funk

Grateful that I can choose to take a break for another day.

Day 13 A Break

Grateful I am taking a break today!

Day 12 - Starbucks

I needed to do some writing today.  In order to do the best job I had to change my environment.  Starbucks provided the best place.  I went to a really busy Starbucks in Carlsbad.  I got myself a grande Espresso roast and sat in a corner with my computer and headphones.  I listened to Italian Opera and wrote my exercise.  Perfect!  Grateful for the space to clear my head!! Thanks Starbucks!

Day 11 Best Interest

I am so thankful to those friends and family that love me.  Those that have my best interest at heart in spite of my faults.  Those that see me as working toward my highest good and working on healing myself and others.  From the bottom of my heart I thank you.

Day 10 A Note from the Universe

TUT A Note from the Universe finds its way into my email inbox everyday.  Sometimes it sooo resonates with what is going on in my life it is scary and sometimes it just feels good and sometimes it just is.  But what it always does is make me smile and that is the most important thing of all.  So remember that thoughts become things so thing good ones.

Day 9 The Ocean

The majestic ocean, so beautiful and calming.  So eminence and grounding.  How grateful I am for you.You give me peace in my heart when I am feeling upset.  You ground me when I am feeling off balance and you are just wonderful at any time.  I love the roar of your waves.  I love the feel of your icy cold water on my feet.  I love to dig my toes in the sand you make wet and I love to collect the shells and stones you discard on the shore.  I can sit there and watch you or close my eyes and listen to you.  You are so powerful and yet so comforting.  Yes I am so thankful for you!

Day 8 ~ Gratitude ~~~ My Fabulous Daughters

When you are feeling low whether it be physically or emotionally it is hard to be thankful.  That is why I am so grateful for the commitment I made to do this everyday.  I have been feeling pretty low for a few days.  I am really reaching to sit down today and write this but I am going to be true to myself and honor that commitment I made.  I know I have so many things to be thankful for so it is not that.  Sometimes it is just that I don't feel thankful or maybe I am just being stubborn because I am feeling low.  Anyway I know that I have been blessed with 2 beautiful daughters.  Different from each other but both amazing in there own ways.  I am so proud of them and how there handle their lives.  I love them without end and wish for them all the love and happiness and joy there is in the universe.  Thanks you girls for being my children.

I know I know I forgot to post yesterdays.  I wrote it but forgot to post it.  Then I lost it.  So Sorry.  I will write 2 on one day soon to make up the day.

Day 6 Reiki Love

I am grateful for my Reiki training, my Reiki teachers Laurie and Cindy and all my fellow classmates.  I have always known my life purpose was in serving.  I feel that I finally got it right this time.  This just feels like it is the perfect thing for me.  It gives me an overall peaceful feeling.  Funny I should say that since class yesterday was an emotional experience.  But when it was over I felt that calm and settled with the issues that had come up.  The thought of healing is beautiful and I am so thankful I found this.

Day 5 What could be better!!

I am so very thankful for that perfect first cup of coffee in the morning.  There is nothing like it.  It always taste better than any other coffee of the day and is so comforting. I cannot get up and face the day without it.  (Now if I could just figure out a way that it could make itself and bring itself to me in bed)  that would be priceless!!

Day 4 Grandkids Are Grand!!

Grandchildren are special.  Just ask any grandparent.  The love I have for my granddaughters is overwhelming.  I can feel so sad or mad or whatever and then see them and all I feel is joy.  I am so thankful to have them in my life.  My heart just melts when I hear the word Nana.  They are amazing little miracles and such a blessing.  I love to show them off to my friends because of course mine are the best, just as I am sure all grandparents feel the same way.  I thank God, the Universe and their parents for those beautiful children.  I love you!!

Day 3 Cozy Cottage Room

Today I am grateful for my home. I rent a very small room in a very large house in Oceanside.  I hated the idea of moving, that is something that would take longer than this space to explain.  I had no choice due to a fire and some other pressing factors.  As circumstances would have it moving in to a room would be my best choice at this time.  I was happy when I found it but when I moved in and realized what a tight space I was living in I fell into a depression.  I called it my 9 x 10 cell.  I finally decided to re-frame that though.  My room is now my cozy little cottage.  I have great neighbors ( the family that lives in the house.)  I have my cat.  Now I will learn the organizing skills to make this work and I am sooo grateful that I have a place to live that I will make it work.  The vale of depression is lifting already.  Thanks Universe you do know what you are doing!

Day 2 Peace, Wellness and Friendship

I am so very thankful for yoga.  Yoga is so much more than exercise and it helps me to feel so good and so at peace yet like I exercised too.  Today is my gentle yoga class with fellow fibromites (lol) a perfect class to get started with and one I will always cherish.  

I am also grateful everyday for the labor of love " The Visible Seniors"  a meet-up group of the most fabulous women.  I am the organizer but the women make this group work.  For the first time in my life I really have lots of women friends and go out and socialize.  This has been a wonderful life altering change for me.  

Yoga gives me strength and my friends keep me strong.  Who could ask for more.

Day 1 Up/Down or Down to Up

When one starts thinking of things to be grateful for so many things come up.  Where to get started.  I will start with this:  I am so very grateful for two people that are in my life.  Both played a part in helping me change who I thought I was to who I am.  From the bottom of my heart I thank my counselor and I thank my life coach.  With your guidance I navigated through some very rough terrain in my life and came out so much happier.  I will alway be grateful and I love you dearly.